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Friday, November 7, 2008
Turning My Stepping Stones To A Stairwell
Yesterday at around 2:30pm I received the news that I was not successful on the Texas Bar Exam. I thought to myself what do I do? What do I say? Who do I tell? Well, after spending five minutes of reflection and accepting the fact that I was not successful I already had my mind made up that February would not be the same as July. See those results changed nothing, I looked at God and said Lord, I am still in the refiner's fire when you are ready to take me out I know that everything will be alright. I had to swallow my pride and tell my family I was not successful. See I was always known as the studious one, the one who applied himself and did what he had to do to become a success. This exam, this moment was different I had to relay news that " I will be sitting for the February Bar Exam." I did not lose and inkling of pride, nor did feel bad for I know in his plan is my purpose and within that purpose is my life and my calling. For I do not take this as a failure but as a referendum on my future. This stepping stone will turn into a step on the stairwell to greatness for me. I did not wallow in pity over this I looked to God and said you have a master plan that I cannot see but I already know you will provide! It did not hurt me as much as I thought it would it just numbed me to a point where I said OK let's move on! If you noticed I never mentioned the word FAILURE because that would be implying that I gave up or tossed in the towel. I have just not succeeded at one thing but there is a second revival, a second chance, a second hope, a second coming. IT IS HERE!!!!
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I love your trust and faith. God certainly has a plan and I'm learning that more and more everyday. You'll do GREAT in February and you will appreciate your success so much more for what you've gone through.
I wish I had your strength and faith at this moment. I admire that in you. In my mind I felt like a failure. All my life I've been the golden child and no one including myself imagined I would not successful. I do not feel like a failure anymore because I know that in order to really get where I'm going God had to take me down a different path than I anticipated, but now I am content knowing that when I reach my final destination I will appreciate it more and be even more grateful. Most of those who passed have seen struggles, and I look at us who didn't pass our lives seemed so much more blessed as if we were use to success coming easily to us. The spoiled, taken care of, I mean our parents still love us regardless and will continue to care for us. For some it really was a last shot or face serious results. I'm ok now. The Lord wanted us to feel some pain because we never have failed so now we will appreciate our blessings more. Also the people on my blog are people who didn't pass the first time and went on to accomplish even greater things than they possibly dreamed.
You have an amazing insight and I know that God's plan for you is still evolving. Right now I know that I am in the profession that I want to be in and living the dream that I have for myself but I often find myself wondering if this is what GOD has in store for me. You are an inspiration to me in that you are able to recognize it is not about OUR will but it is HIS will that shall be done.
With that said, you are in my prayers and I ask that you keep me in yours as we both embark on the new chapters in our lives.
-Lacee'
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