Rooting for the Home Team......

Sometimes we find ourselves rooting so much for others we forget to root for ourselves... We can be our own worst enemy.....  In ourself we have a team that needs a fan base and at the head of that fan base should be ourself.......  We find ourself rooting for friends, family, and lovers that we lose our own fan base to the very team we are rooting for.... psychologically our brain needs the support of self in order to push us to higher heights and to get us to think that we can do anything possible...... we make sure we are on time to their events neglecting ourself and running late and selling ourself short for our own priorities..... i guess what i am trying to say in all the cluttered mess is sometimes we need to take time to sure up self... to make sure that we put self first sometimes and build the confidence needed to sustain healthy living....  we can get so caught up in others lives that we forget the WE as a person exist and we need to show ourself the same time, attention, and love we show others....  I am one who is guilty of giving, giving, and giving and never taking time to make sure that I am happy or that I am doing things to better myself....  After taking an assessment I felt that it is important that now more than ever I root for myself and the more I root for myself the more others will root for me... the more others root for me the more support I have.... The important part is... if no one else is willing to root for me I can still root for myself and that's all I need....

How Close To Perfection Will You Come?

Two blogs in one night.... I am really getting back into the habit but I have so much I want to talk about.....   Have u ever felt that its my time.....  I am ready... I want it right now.... I can't wait....  How much longer... The anxiety always seems to kill you... The way the world moves so rapidly we want everything right now, but I have always been told that perfection can never be rushed it has many specifications that must be adhered to... See I was pondering on some of things I must take away from certain situations that I am placed in and I thought about it....  I kind of look at the world as a huge marketplace that God has placed us in....  See you purchase one thing compare it to another and find out which one you like....  Then upon all the things you purchase and compare you begin to build a list of likes and dislikes... you narrow the choices down and as you narrow the choices down you come closer to what is perfect for you....  See there are so many things to choose from... some are good for us and others aren't but we don't always know what's good or bad from just looking at them.. sometimes we have to test them out or give them a dry run....  After the test drive we make a clear and conscious decision on whether its good or bad.....  Sometimes bad things come in good wrappers but we don't know that until we unwrap them....  Its okay because this gives us warning signs for the next situation.... an idea on what to look for in friends, relationships, jobs, or any other real life situations....  Because in order to get to perfection we have to mess up, start over, and rearrange things....  See perfection never started out perfect...  So its up to the sculptor of your masterpiece to determine how close to perfection you will come.. and that sculptor is you..

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Making the Right Moves with Bad Cards....

See when I first heard this song you are now listening to while reading my blog I just turned it off I didn't listen to the words but now that I have listened to it I have fallen in love...  See life deals us hand after hand and depending on how we play that end we could either win, lose, or come out even....  Sometimes our hands can be a complete bust but if you play your cards right and strategize bad cards can still win........  Even the best hands can lose.....  Nothing in life is guaranteed and all you can do is play your cards as they come...  When you receive a bad hand in life don't look at how bad the hand is.. Take your hand rearrange them until they are playable... then once they are playable then begin to compete....  Don't let life's hand knock you out just play them hey prayer and grace helps you win also...  Playing My Cards!!!

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It Doesn't Take Much To Be Thankful....

When we think of the many things we have it should not be hard for us to give THANKS to the LORD GOD for everything HE has done for us.........  See we take for granted so many things that God has given us... Every breath I take.. Thankful... Every cent and I do mean cent I have left in my bank account.. Thankful....  For my loving family... Thankful....  For eyes to see God's creation and creatures.. Thankful... For a beating heart.. Thankful....  For the car I drive... Thankful....  For the emotions I can experience which lets me know I am in my right mind... Thankful... For the friends who have leaned on me and allowed me to lean on them... Thankful......  For the people who have allowed me to live with them rent free... Thankful....  For God's Grace and Mercy... Thankful....  For letting me live to see Barack Obama elected.. Thankful....  For the things God has kept me safe from... Thankful.....  I have would not made it this far and through all troubles, transgressions, and trials I am thankful he stood by me.......  See I know through PRAISE i can rectify any feelings of fear, despair, pain, anger, inadequateness....  Thank you... So Thankful.....  

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Phoenix Rising..... From the Ashes I will Emerge....

The tale of many success stories begin with pain... suffering.. shortcomings.... tears.... struggle....  So why should mine be any different.... As i was instant messaging a friend on yahoo we began talking about life and how and it just have a funny way of panning out...  It made me become appreciative of the struggles I am now facing.... I can now smile through my adversity and realize that from the ashes I will EMERGE!  Every person should go through a renovation and a rebuilding stage every couple of years... See, just like an old building our foundation becomes weak, our walls begin to change color and our facade become cracked and weathered.... but just like that old building we must renovate or sometimes demolish and start all over again.. Either way we must fix the problems we face.....  So right now I am going through a complete renovation getting rid of all the outdated fixtures and filling in gaps that have emerged in my foundation...  Even though those renovations bring pain, tears, and struggle it is there to strengthen my weakening soul....  For the tears represent the pouring of new cement in the foundation ridding myself of the gaps....  The struggle represents the welding and making of my beams to make me stronger, sturdier to sustain more... my shortcomings represent the cracks and weathering in my facade that must be cleaned, bleached, polished, and resurfaced in order to make me more well rounded.... See from the ashes we rise....  from the top we fall... Right now I am in a renovation stage and it starts from the tears (new foundation), to the struggle (welding), to my shortcomings (cleaning, polishing, and resurfacing)... From this I will emerge a new building ready to sustain anything that is thrown at it... Remember rising is a lot better than falling...

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Really Throwing My Hands Up and Letting God Have Control...

As much as we say we are giving something to GOD how many of us actually give it up and leave it there?  I find myself losing control of my own life by trying to control too much of my life.  See anyone who knows me knows that I am a person who is God-fearing and one who gives God the glory through the good, the bad and the ugly.  Many people who read my blog I have had personal conversations with where we have helped each other through difficult times.  I find myself counseling my friends and being strong for them even when I cannot be strong for myself.  See these next couple of months will be a true test of my faith in GOD and I will be solely in his control.  See right now I am even struggling with totally giving God the control for I am  trying to make a way for myself instead of just giving it over to GOD....  Control.. Let God have it.. He will make a way for he has done it a million times over....  Everyday I will try to place more and more of my hand inside God's and tighten the grip....  I vow from this day forward that God is going to guide my steps and take complete control of my future...  I just have to take it one day at a time.. one problem at a time...  God is in control.....  He will guide me!

25 is Just A Number.....

At 25 it would seem that I would be entering the prime of my life.... a stable career, a loving relationship, and many other things that people my age long for.....  At 25, I have neither......  See I have tried to force some of these things thinking it would make me happy....  or make my heart content but it would only temporarily satisfy my hunger for those things....  See there is a season for everything a winter, spring, summer, and fall....  25 is still so very young and I have so much more to live for... to love for.. to understand.... to gain wisdom.....  25 is just a number....  There is no year or age where you God said you should receive your blessings but they come as HE sees fit administer them.  Sarah didn't have her children until she was well into her 100's....  Moses wasn't truly blessed until late in his age... So there is no reason to rush or expect things when its not their season....  Seasons come seasons go.... Lord, I am walking into my season....  So 25 your are here and I will enjoy you and learn so therefore when I hit 26 I won't have to live 25 all over again....  Shoutout to the person whose name seems to be exactly what they are....

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Turning My Stepping Stones To A Stairwell

Yesterday at around 2:30pm I received the news that I was not successful on the Texas Bar Exam.  I thought to myself what do I do?  What do I say?  Who do I tell?  Well, after spending five minutes of reflection and accepting the fact that I was not successful I already had my mind made up that February would not be the same as July.  See those results changed nothing, I looked at God and said Lord, I am still in the refiner's fire when you are ready to take me out I know that everything will be alright.  I had to swallow my pride and tell my family I was not successful.  See I was always known as the studious one, the one who applied himself and did what he had to do to become a success.  This exam, this moment was different I had to relay news that " I will be sitting for the February Bar Exam."  I did not lose and inkling of pride, nor did feel bad for I know in his plan is my purpose and within that purpose is my life and my calling.  For I do not take this as a failure but as a referendum on my future.  This stepping stone will turn into a step on the stairwell to greatness for me.  I did not wallow in pity over this I looked to God and said you have a master plan that I cannot see but I already know you will provide!  It did not hurt me as much as I thought it would it just numbed me to a point where I said OK let's move on!  If you noticed I never mentioned the word FAILURE because that would be implying that I gave up or tossed in the towel.   I have just not succeeded at one thing but there is a second revival, a second chance, a second hope, a second coming.  IT IS HERE!!!!

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