Who Have You Inspired Today?

This blog is important to me.  As I took a job at a local call center here in Houston to earn money while waiting to find something better I realized that I had not been doing the job I was supposed to do and that was INSPIRE people to be better, do better, and want more.  As one of the supervisors came in and spoke with us about the upward mobility of the job the first thing he said was, "do you see the kind of car I drive?"  The reason this bothered me so much was because it was a white male speaking to a group of African Americans.   I became infuriated because I thought how dare you sit here and sell MY PEOPLE a pipe dream.  Many of these people eyes lit up because he drove the BRAND NEW BLACK CADILLAC with the rims.  Why don't you explain your financial security? 401(k) plan? Health insurance?  Is this what us African Americans have sold our souls for a NEW BLACK CADILLAC...  or a new car period or material things?  Do not misread what I am reading there is nothing wrong with material gain but why accept it now when there is something much better out there.

The comments I made to my coworkers was, "yes he has a nice car but what is his living situation.?"  "How good is his credit?"  "How much is in his bank account on reserve?"  The eyes of my co-workers lit up in amazement because someone spoke out against the BLACK CADILLAC.  Then they begin to ask me questions that would help them in the long run.  What can I do?  I don't want to be in school for four years what else can I do?  Even by doing a role play where I made them play professionals I saw the inspiration they received by knowing that it is possible.  My partner began saying after the role play I am going to do this and this and this.  It made me feel that maybe just by planting a seed someone might see their way out of the call center.  So my question to you is "Who have you inspired today?"

Many people who are reading my blog are colleagues, classmates, and friends of mine who are on their career path and who are truly blessed.  So why have you not shared your blessings, your struggle, and your story to help uplift someone else?  Many of use live inspired lives without the inspiration.  Dreams and aspirations of generations of family members who could not be in the position we are today.  And no you did not make here alone! Along with God someone helped inspire you to get where you are today, whether it was a parent, a pastor, a friend, a relative, or anyone else someone inspired you to be better, do better, and want more.  So why are we so selfish when its our turn to inspire someone?  Are we too caught up in our own success to motivate someone else to become successful.  I call it inspirational neglect because you killed the inspiration and motivation someone gave you and instead of passing it on. 

My people, my people we have come too far to accept or let someone accept the pipe dream.  As I conclude remember God blessed you to be an inspiration to others.  So make sure that everyday God allows you to be on this earth, that you inspire at least 2 people a day.  So stop loathing in your own success and find someone to inspire.  This is the challenge I pose to everyone who reads this blog.

J Kelly

Getting Out The Anger... Moving On....

Who knew the younger sister of a international superstar could help me move on.  Well, I decided its time to move on close the doors of anger and blaze my own path.  I can sit here and blame my lack of no work on my degree or because no one wants to hire me or my school, but that's only an excuse to soothe my mind and make me feel better about my laziness.  There is so much more I could be doing besides complaining and whining about my current situation.

Well the younger sister I am talking about is Solange Knowles.  Listening to her CD allows me to escape into her life and compare it to mine.  Life is not easy but it's definitely worth living.  Life will not move forward or progress until you humble yourself and decide that you are going to get out and knock on every door until one opens.  Sure lots of them will close or probably never even open but if you never knock then how will you know if it will open.

Sure I could have done more things to make myself marketable, but it will not deter my drive, my motivation, and my determination.  For I will be persistent I will knock on every door until the right one opens.  Like Solange says I am not here to be Johnny, Thurgood, or any other famous attorney I am only here to be J Kelly (My God Given Name).  That's all I can and will be.  So until the door opens I will continue to knock.  May God Bless.

J Kelly

Getting Your Heart and Mind In Sync...

So many times we are plagued by decisions or feelings that are a true conflict between our heart and mind.  So when making decision and determining feelings which part of your body is telling you the correct thing to do?

Well your mind is often an impulse of what you want of have been daydreaming to happen and you heart is your conscience on what you know should happen.  In order to really make the best decision or decipher your true feelings one must reconcile the heart and the mind so that they become one.  In order for life to be successful your heart and mind must beat, think, and work as one organ.  How is that possible one may ask?  Simple, make resolutions, stick to them, and make sure you do not divert from them. 

So often I find myself daydreaming about this or that and then I realize thats not in sync with my heart so everyday I  have vowed to wake up, pray, make new resolutions as well as keep old ones.  The only way to truly have peace joy and happiness is to make sure you walk with God and that your mind and heart walk hand in hand.

J Kelly

Picking Up Other's Messes!

All my life I have been the one to clean up after people whether its relationship problems, financial problems, spiritual problems, or just lending an ear.  Don't get me wrong I don't mind being there for friends, family, and co-workers but some messes can only be cleaned up by the person who created it.  What frustrates me most is when someone asks my opinion and I pour my heart and soul into the advice I give and they totally disregard what I have said.  Damn, if you knew what you were going to do in the first place why in the FUCK did you ask me?

Another thing that irritates the hell out of me is when people do not give a damn about shit!  Have a little pride about the shit you have and the shit you do.  If you can find time to do everything else why can't you find time to take care of your business including home.  It gets irritating.  Sometimes I feel like the damn landfill where everyone dumps all their trash and expects me to sort through to create fertilizer to nourish them again in order for them grow.  Wow, what an analogy huh?  Well its true.  If there is one thing I know how to do is SORT THROUGH SHIT, CLEAN IT UP, THEN POLISH IT!  

Maybe I shouldn't complain... Maybe its a gift from GOD... I think it is...  To all my friends reading this blog this is not a direct attempt to persecute any one person its just the way I currently feel at this moment.    Sometimes Guys we need to CLEAN UP (literally) after ourselves and stop depositing our trash elsewhere.  Its our trash so lets throw it away and deal with it.  I love you ALL..  And ALL OF YOU KNOW I AM HERE FOR YOU IF U NEED ME...  THIS BLOG WAS JUST SOME CLUTTERED THOUGHTS!!!  And I never get tired of helping.. The only time I get pissed off is when you come to me for appeasement cause I am not here to appease you but to KEEP IT 100 and hopefully you will do the same with me.  

J Kelly

The Search Has Ended...

I lift up a rock.. its not there....  i look under my mattress its not there.. I google it.. still can't find it...  I check my wallet... empty...  I call my friends... none of them have it...  Damn, where is it?  I scrounge through the stores at the mall.. nowhere to be found... I even look at the gym while working out and it has eluded me.. As I become extremely frustrated I look up and what do I see? Exactly what the hell I have been looking for.. I find it staring straight back at me... It's me... I embody everything I need, everything I want, and everything I desire.   I figured out the problem I was looking at everyone and everywhere else instead of looking at me...  Now comes JOY!

J Kelly

First Cluttered Blog

Good Evening World.... Well, this is my fist blog and I actually think this shit is going to make me a healthier person.  I named my shit a cluttered mind because I have so many thoughts and shit that run through my mind that it creates a landfill of thoughts in my head.  Sometimes I do not know where the hell these thoughts come from but they are there.

Right now I am in a state of confusion.  At 24, I have completed a bachelor's degree program and a juris doctorate program.  Shit should come so easy but it has not.  I am stuck because its so hard to find a job... I thought once I completed this educational training it would be so easy but it is the complete opposite.  Well, if this was ever a time that test my faith its right now but I know I have to stay strong because the Lord has brought me this far and I know there is something in store in the future.  Its all about PATIENCE!  

I will apologize in advance because I will jump from subject to subject as they run across my mind.  It just seems that life is so much easier for everyone else right now.  They have lives, jobs, and all of the above... I have ummm neither... Even my social life has been plagued with boredom.  Is it me?  Maybe, but I don't remember life being this damn dull.  Anyway, its hard to be happy for others when it seems that nothing is right but all I can do is focus on the future and how things can go right.  I know that through PRAISE you can come through.  Thank God for all the blessings he is blessing others with and what HE WILL bless you with.  This blog is not going as great as I thought it would I had so much to say before I got here but it seems like my brain has gone blank.  It seems like everytime I think positive something slaps me in the face which reminds me why I had the negative attitude in the first place.. Be Patient!   I have to keep telling myself that because DAMN if i don't I might drive myself crazy.

I dream of success everyday.  Its like I can taste it on the tip of my tongue but everytime I try to swallow it I realize I swallowed the wrong dose of reality.  Its like God shows me things but does not show me the path I should take to get where I need to be.  I search and search and search but it seems impossible.  Maybe I am looking in all the wrong places.   I look at the situations I base my situations on and I have to realize that some things seem great but they could be a facade.  No one can truly EXPRESS their happiness but its something you see in their eyes and in their attitude.  

Enough of this blog for right now.  Oh, this is time to FIND ME because I do not know truly who I am yet...  Not saying I am confused but I need to find my way...  Hopefully this blog will be the beginning.